Boy Texas sure does suck. I mean there's alot to do here but nobody to do it with. Most of the people here I became friends with the first time around are useless now, since either they are drug addicts which I dont want to become again, or they're boring and I only found them to have redeemable qualities under the heavy filter of intoxication, but I suppose that'll aid me to get my ass in gear as far as accomplishment goes, I really only pity my libido, now that my only mistress is solitude. But every cumulus has it's argentium lining, since now I hone my bass skills to an even more masterful level, and also get in shape, somewhat.

One definite plus of texas, aside from the peace of mind from paranoia (you'll have to ask me about that), is the silence. Nothing makes me feel better than stepping outside at night and feeling the warm grip of silence all around me. Tonight I just stood and started at the moon for about a half an hour, not hearing a damn thing and loving every second of it. You'd think I lived in a big city up until now but the truth is I lived in a tiny little port town, now in shables with nothing left but a few homes bordering rich neighbor towns and empty industrial sectors left now for more favorable machine labor based manufacturing plants far far away. It's probably because I lived near a highway or maybe the fact that I'm just a dumb romantic, but oh well, I enjoy it and thats really all i need as a reason.

I wonder how my friends are doing, so far away. I could name them all and what they meant to me but that'd just make me even more nostalgic and perhaps invade what little privacy they give eachother. Instead I'll just point out that I hope whatever miscellaneous endeavors they're currently undertaking turn out successful or at the very least, worthwhile in effort expenditure.

I'm going to go stare at the moon s'more. I'd adise anyone else who enjoys doing so to do so often while'st they still can... I'll drop out of orbit in a few hundred thousand years... best to enjoy things while they last I say.