Bad shit's goin' down. Could he have elaborated? Yes. Should he have elaborated? Hell yes. Did he elaborate? Of course not, forethat would provoke and emotional response, further, it would show me his fear. It would show me that he is human, and that he is weak. I had been like a brother to him, yet I don't know what's happening to him right now, I don't even know what has happened to him over the past year. My younger brother is a thousand miles away, and he isn't aware of the slightest bit of difference between us. Maybe he expects me to dash down to his house with a loaded pistol and some liquor for afterward. The person who would have done that never existed, and yet I feel as if I miss the complicated situations that cause me to feign such behavior. If I let one more person down I don't know how I'm going to be able to look in the mirror anymore. But this has absolutely nothing to do with my tragic and trite problems, this is about the fact that I decided to glorify drug cultre mob mentality bullshit and now someone who wanted to learn from my wisdom may be putting his existance on the rocks because of it. Speaking of tragic, if that thick headed kid gets his ass killed, I'm going to go on a binge drinking self destructive uncontrolled intenally focused rampage. I refuse to grieve. I can't live with such losses. That's what's goin down.